a most unusual session – transition from physical to psychological

To date, most of my float sessions involved deeper and deeper degrees of physical relaxation. Particularly along the spine. Today was the first day where deeper things “relaxed”.

I started out waiting for loosening to occur in the neck region but noticed it was already quite loose. Then nothing happened further down in the lower spinal areas either.

But then, recent memories began to play back. But what was odd is they (the visual pictures) began to elongate, much like my spine does when it relaxes — I suppose all the charge was being knocked out of them.

And then I had something of a nightmare. It is hard to remember it. I recall some sort of crashing about. And cords being disconnected. It reminded me of how Neo would sit in the chair when entering the matrix. The odd thing was I was not “me” in these nightmares. I was something like a computer chip or a chess piece – the things I use the most.

I gained the usual physical benefits… oh one more thing.

After the nightmare ended. I decided to try to visualize a red ball in front of my eyes. Instead there was a red band with white slashes in it. Someone said: “we’ve been needing to communicate with you. Come back tomorrow for more information”

Late that night

When I dosed off to sleep on land that night, I had a dream that I was floating and while I was floating I had another experience which I can no longer recall… wow.

On Land

“On Land” is the subtitle of Brian Eno’s album “Ambient 4” — basically being on land after floating was quite uncomfortable for awhile. However, just now when I stood up, I felt good connection from my feet to my head without any particular part bearing the majority of the weight.

Those of you with backgrounds in Alexander or Feldenkrais know the feeling.

in a moment of surrendering to no-thought

I entered the tank with the objective of getting spinal elongation. As usual, I started out getting my head-neck area relaxed. Then I kept relaxing this area more and more. Eventually the coccyx separated from the sacral area. Then later, I got that whole-spine separation that I was looking for.

I decided to just stay in for a bit longer to relax a bit more. Then, before I knew it, thought was dropping away. And I let it. Then more thought dropped away. And I surrendered. Then my body was limp and free of all action. And for a few brief seconds, I was looking up at my body from below it.

serious stomach pain all day

A day ago, I really pushed hard to sleep in the tank, putting in about 5.5 hours. The next day I had general discomfort all through the upper body. It seemed like my biochemical balance was being righted too fast for me to adjust.

Undaunted, I went in for what was at least 6 or 7 continuous hours last night. It was _great_ when I came out. And then in my shower, this rubbery black gunk was rubbing off my arms. And then a by morning time, I had this serious stomach pain.

Being on the the warrior diet, I eat raw all day and eat my omnivorous cooked meal at night. Last night, I ate something I dont usually eat. Pasta with sphagetti sauce and some cheese that I really dont think was so great.

I also follow the Hulda Clark bowel maintenance program. And I took my Betaine Hydrochloride first thing in the morning. And after that is when the pain hit.

This pain has been interesting. I called this girl who is a healer and requested distance healing. Before we could get to the healing, i kept feeling better and better and better. I actually _saw_ that some aspect of me was remembering that I am supposed to be sick and kept trying to return me to the sick state.

Eventually my memory of illness won out and I went back downhill, but not into doubled-over pain. I got some ginger trips from Whole Foods (ginger and vitamin b-6 as Pyrodoxine HCl) and that made me feel better.

Now, I think the worst part is over. I’m going for some foot reflexology healing tonight and have 3 hours before I go… I really would like to float, and I am going to wait until I am drawn to long-term tank sleeping. I was really pushing things because I wanted to experience the thngs I’ve read in the archives here.

So I’m going back to 1 – 1.5 hours per day until I truly feel more is helping and not rushing.

Reflection on Watsu

Watsu water therapy appears to be embraced by the occupational therapy community.

The thing about floating is that the body fixes itself. It seems sad that the only thing acceptable to insurance companies is something where a therapist has months or years of book learning… or maybe I am wrong. Is there a common medical practice that insurance companies cover where the body fixes itself?

The lack of a therapist is what I like about floating. Therapists have different levels of skill. And they can have an off-day. The water and salt never have an off day or reduction in skill level.

That being said, Harold Dull has a very comforting voice.

That was a nice nap.

i really dont know how long i was in the tank. but man was that a great session. i came out and realized i needed to invite trishaluv to a soul gazing session.

in the shower, this rubbery black gunk came out through my skin.

Water – mirrors more than just images

In my first float at spacetime tanks, the tank revealed to me all of my upper body tension. It was horrifying how clinched my entire body was. It only took the water showing me what i was doing wrong to fix it.

you CAN have too much of a good thing

I planned to sleep in my tank tonight. I did the first session and had to come out to urinate. Then I went in for a second session and it started getting a bit hot in the tank. I feel very odd. I feel like I have not slept, but I dont feel sleepy. Also, I feel like my body chemistry is “too improved for its own good” —

This is definitely a case of too much too soon. Everything about what happened is positive, but it improved me too fast. Best to return to daily floating for 1 or 2 hours and stretching it out to 3 or 4 on the weekend… eventually your love for the tank will grow in harmony with your ability to assimilate its merits.

Then sleeping becomes a possibility.

perky and snappy!

Well, today was my first day of substituting my float tank for my futon… I came home at lunch, feeling a bit low-key. So instead of collapsing on my futon and waking up in a funk 1-2 hours later, I did a float.

And here I am fresh as a little spring chicken. bock bock bock!

I am Alpha and Omega

I am good. I am bad. I am weak. I am strong. I am health. I am disease. I am hope as well as despair. I am all that ever was, will be, and is RIGHT NOW. I am THAT I am.

When I see a person who looks this good (USE YOUR IMAGINATION)

You want to play the good guy. dip out of the zero sum game and be the positive. Ignore the fact that polarity drives everything, from procreation to electricity. But towards completeness I trek… for I AM ALLLLLLLLL……